MarickofCG

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Letting go by MarickofCG, literature

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By myself by MarickofCG, literature

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By myself

I thought you loved me but it seems I fell for it again I thought you cared about me but it was just another game I keep falling for the same thing All the lies and tricks They never stop It happens all the time Always with the I love you's Then comes the I hate you's It never stays the same It's always changing Why can't I find the right one The one who loves me and means it The one who cares and shows it I think I'm just meant to be like this forever though Never to find her Always to walk by myself

True love by MarickofCG, literature

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True love

I look into your eyes and see what I have always wanted You are my hopes and dreams and the only one for me Without you I couldn't see going on You're the reason why I'm still here You're all the good in my life All the pain I had is gone Now that I have you Everytime we talk you bring a smile to my face and I fall deeper in love with you You'll never know how much you've done just by saying a few simple words but they mean the world to me and I never want it to change

Walking away from it all by MarickofCG, literature

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Razor by MarickofCG, literature

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Razor

With very cut I make it brings me closer to my death All the blood running down my arms is almost to much but I can't stop One pain is supressing the other I can't face my other probem I won't deal with it I'll just put it in my bottle and hope the razor helps me forget I know it'll get better It has to Who knows how much longer I could go on like this though All the blood and tears are becoming to much No one should have to go through this There must be another way

The pain by MarickofCG, literature

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The pain

It's coming up again All the pain I've kept inside I try to let it out piece by piece but it's becoming to much for me to bare I fear one day all of it, all the pain, all the hate, all the fear, will just come out at once I need to resist the urge to hurt but I don't know if I can any longer I tried to hide the razor but it's calling out to me I need to let my frustration out some way or another but the pain I bring needs to stop It's become to much now I see it all running down my wrists I didn't bring pain to anyone but myself I watch it slide slowly as my world starts to fade I've finally let it out All the pain, all the

Silent scream by MarickofCG, literature

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Silent scream

He follows her closely With every turn she takes he gets a little closer She can feel his breath on the back of her neck now She falls to the ground and lets out a scream in her confussion but no one hears it or cares to take notice This is the day that she will die So many things she had left to say So many things she had left to do Now she will die with all of her regrets She tries to let out one more scream as the blade slides along her neck but can't It's over She's gone and so are her dreams How easily she was taken out of this world by one stranger How fragile her life was There was nothing she could do but depend on othe

His haunting past by MarickofCG, literature

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His haunting past

He sits there staring out the window everyday He speaks to no one and is not spoken to All he does is think about his past and how he came to be here He thinks of that cold night were he changed his life forever The blood of his famly, his whole life, on his hands He has put many scars on himself trying to supress one pain with another but it never works He's left with those haunting screams until his death There is nothing he can do to forget about what he has done How he never even took a second thought to sliding that blade through her soft skin How he doesn't regret taking the life of a child who hadn't even yet experienced life

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Is this love? by MarickofCG, literature

Hate by MarickofCG, literature

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Hate

Why does she do this to me. She strikes me in my stomache and laughs at me while i'm on the ground coughing my blood. Yet for some reason she feels like I need to fight to get her appreciation and trust. I hate her and wish death to her. Nothing that cold hearted should be allowed to walk the earth. She thinks I don't know what she's doing, waiting for her chance to finally control this place, waiting for just the right moment to turn them against me.

Believe it? by MarickofCG, literature

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Believe it?

We belive that there is life after death because we're to scared to let go. We are comforted by the thought that are dead loved ones are still out there watching us. We belive that there is a heaven so we can think that the people we love have gone somewhere better after they've died. We believe that there is a hell so we can think that the ones we hate are finally getting there just.

Gone by MarickofCG, literature

My place by MarickofCG, literature

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My place

All alone in my dark and cold place again, hoping that maybe, someday, someone will come to get me I need to hear your voice. I need to feel your warm body against mine, But here there is no sounds but screams and faded laughter. There is no warmth only from the pits of broken hearts. The shadows are suffocating me, tightening there grip with every breath I bring in. So long I've been here and so much longer I will stay; bleeding, weaping, dying.

Dreams by MarickofCG, literature

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Dreams

I wait here for her everynight. Hoping to get in one more I love you before the day ends. I wish she knew how much I love her. I say it to her so much but I don't know if she realizes how much I do. I wish I could be there for her, to hold her hand trough her pain, to hold her through her tears, to look into her eyes and tell her everything is alright. I want to take all her pain and worries away. Take her away from all that is bad in this world. Someday I will go get her but until then my dreams are just that, dreams.

Into the shadows by MarickofCG, literature

The last one by MarickofCG, literature

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The last one

I looked into your eyes and fell in love the night I met you You told me everything was going to be alright now I believed everything you said to me; how you loved me, how you needed me, how you thought I was perfect Now I see it was all a lie You never loved me You never needed me You never thought I was perfect You left me and shattered my heart into a million pieces Now it's been repaired and I can see through your lies It will never happen again You will never be allowed in my life again I'm through with you I don't need you

His haunting past by MarickofCG, literature

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His haunting past

Silent scream by MarickofCG, literature

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Silent scream

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Artistic Intercourse

Music winds beyond your room, dancing its way to my window, where slips past the pin-prick sized holes in my gossamer curtains. Upon reaching me, it's just a jumble of words, a hint of melody blending with the patter of rain outside my room. Still, the garbled music forms a tenuous bond between our two lives, tendrils of which are weighed down by pregnant droplets of water. A faint drumming makes its way into my room as well, mixing with the percussion of splashing raindrops. Your palms slap against the stretched leather, music flowing from your fingertips. I close my eyes and let the rhythm overtake me. Your hands keep time against my body

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Letting go by MarickofCG, literature

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About MarickofCG

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United States
Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: North Dakota, yes that is in the U.S
Favourite genre of music: I like it all... except rap, keep that away from me
Shell of choice: My closet
Personal Quote: You know why they use fuck as a bad thing and sex thing, cause when you fuck you get fucked

Favourite Visual Artist

Alex Ross is awesome

Favourite Movies

I like alot

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Coldplay, less than jake, nirvana, metallica..ok I'm goin to stop with that

Favourite Writers

Well certainly not myself but i don't know

Other Interests

Guitar, music, walking in the rain, people, and llamas

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MarickofCG

Jun 6, 2005

burden-of-thought

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I have a new site [ burden-of-thought ]

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MarickofCG

Dec 21, 2004

Devious Journal Entry

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So I havn't used this in a long time.  I stopped writing.  I'm trying to stop being so emo but now it seems like it's just comin back to bite me in the ass.  When I break down now it's even worse.  Now my mom knows and wants to get me on anti depressants.  Alot has happened since this summer.

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MarickofCG

Oct 22, 2004

Leave us alone

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I need to vent and I can't put this on my xanga. Maybe we're goin to fast, I don't know.  I know this is probably gonna piss alot of people off but it's pissin me off keppin it in.  It's our relationship and I know you guys are just trying to help, but theres become a fine line between giving advice and telling how to run it.  We really arn't moving that fast emotionally, we know what we're doing.  It's not like we're goin to have sex anytime soon.  We just like to show how much we care for each other and if we choose to do that physically then thats our decision, no one elses.  I do truly care for her and I'm not here to just try and get in